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About

I am Cain, N, or just simply Coyote or Coyotl. I am an intersex queer coyote therian, or more specifically, a coyote shapeshifter. I often love to use the term holothere as a way to describe myself and my identity, more or less explained here.

I am also just someone who likes to indulge in fandoms, I really enjoy watching some shows, reading, and studying into my interests. I have adhdtism and with it comes special interests of mine I really love to run with. I love to study about alterhumanity, its history, to archive what I find, and learn more about it. It has been a special interest of mine since I was far too young to be in the internet. —- I am also a huge fan of meteorology, storms, tornados, and aspire to be a storm chaser.

Discovering alterhumanity,

I first found this label about 10 years ago through an otherkin cringe compilation. I was certainly unsure and curious so I watched it, it was there and then I believed that something clicked with me. I believe from the moment I was able to think for myself, I was a coyote. I believe I was born as such, and finding this video was able to help me put a label on what I was.

I, as a young pup, far too young to be on the internet would immediately take my chance to explore anything I could find about Otherkin. At the time I believed to be a wolf. Sure, popular then but to be a canine felt right. This feeling has never left me, even if it’s a little different now. Pup me would often enough rush into things, as any kid would, trying to learn as much as I go, even alongside the hardships being openly wolf at the time. Nothing would ruin my need to just learn more. Before discovering the cringe comps, I would discovering furries and YouTube shapeshifting spells. Then eventually Animal Jam. Games such as Animal Jam, Wolvden, animal simulators, and just in general of animal RP’ing, I was obsessed with. I would have done anything and everything to just feel more into the media/games, as if I was my character or the animal itself.

Around the age 13, I would be active on DeviantArt and Skype with a friend group I had at the time. We had a running joke of calling me a dog, which I believe might have been one of the first species euphoria moments I could remember. I would often enough cringe being referred to as a human then, none of that made sense because yeah, I am physically human (as I thought then), but it would make little me incredibly dysphoric to be referred to as such.

At 14, I began to believe I might have been some kind of hellhound or domestic dog, I combined the two labels to see how it would fit and for a while, I did, but not in the way I thought it would. It more or less changed forms a lot, usually doberman hellhound or wolf or even horse hellhound. It was at 15 when I truly considered I was maybe a coyote. Though I would continue to identify as a hellhound until I was early 17. At 15, when considering I was a coyote, it was through meeting another coyote therian on Instagram. Hearing their experiences, I believed something clicked for me to relate with. Though, at first I had issues with the idea.

I wish I could have a better understanding on why, but at first, I despised the idea that I was a coyote. I put it off until I was 16. While it’s someone who I know have nothing but hate for, I have to thank him for the time we had talked about nonhuman identity. Through him and our conversations, I was able to truly understand that yes, yes I was a coyote. It wasn’t until recently of 2023 at 19, I was able to finally pin point I am a coyote shapeshifter. Now at 20, 2024, I am able to proudly consider myself as a coyote shapeshifter, or coyote shifter, and I wouldn’t change it for the world.

Werecard

A werecard is simply a kind of short questionnaire you use to describe yourself as alterhuman, even some parts of it just for funs and giggles. The template being used here.

Human Name: Cain / N
Were Name: Coyote / Coyotl
Phenotype: Coyote, coyote shapeshifter and all that comes with it
Shifting Ability: I do not shift entirely, I more or less always am a coyote, my wereself and my human self are one with another. I cannot be human in itself without my coyote identity as I cannot be coyote without some part of me being shaped as a human. —— phantom limbs however do shift throughout my forms. I can often enough feel how they can be various forms, though they always have coyote with them.
Birthdate: 01/28/2004
Birthplace: The Midwestern plains
Home Territory: The Midwestern plains and woods
Dream Territory: Any place is okay with a pack of my own. Though I do yearn for mountains, the north where it's colder. I do not mind however the idea of the dry deserts.

Physical Description, Were: I take many forms and shapes with being a coyote, however for the most part my fur is always grey with parts of dark browns. My legs, muzzle, and ears carry a strong tinted red color, my eye color can change, though I find it would be mostly yellow and orange. Some art,

Human Career: I work on a barn at the time this is being done and typed out, though soon I hope to peruse into a career with meteorology and to become a storm chaser, study tornados and history of storms.
Hobbies/Interests: I like a lot of things, especially cartoons and animated series. I enjoy a lot of shows such as Murder Drones, which is my hyperfix as this is being made, The Owl House, Kipo and the Age of the Wonderbeasts, and more. I also enjoy The Magnus Archives, Warriors, some musicals, and so on. Though other interests are of course, coyotes, storms, collecting, history (especially alt.human, storm, and cultures history). For hobbies, I love to write and create art when I can. I also love to collect things, for the moment I collect anything related to coyotes. Like, plushies, pins, bones, taxidermy, arts, and so on.
Favorite Movies: Don’t have one!
Favorite Were-movie: Funny enough, don’t have one!
Favorite Art: There is too much to say
Favorite Were-art: Far too much to say
Favorite Quote: “It’s my body, therefore I am.” - I do not remember who said this but I remember months ago someone said this and it has always stuck with me. Our body, our mind, it’s who and what we are.
Favorite Were Saying/Quote: “Whenever the pressure of our complex city life thins my blood and numbs my brain, I seek relief in the trail; and when I hear the coyote wailing to the yellow dawn, my cares fall from me - I am happy.” - Hamlin Garland
Favorite Song: Creatures in Heaven - Glass Animals
Favorite Season: Autumn
Favorite Holidays: Halloween, Christmas, celebrating the changes of seasons
Preferred Prey: Anything with ribs, I really love ribs so
Hunting Tips: Play smart, always assume that your own prey will be smarter and faster than you. Never underestimate them. Learn their movements, just understand them. You’ll learn over time.
Preferred Method of Attack: Watch out loud I can scream.
Favorite Non-Were Mythological Beast: Dragons of almost all kinds
Feelings Toward Vampires: Very cool
Feelings Toward Normal Humans: Chill, as long as they’re cool with me, I’m cool with them.
Personal Therianthropy: I have already above talked about my story, or at least a good part o my story with my discoveries, but with my personal therianthropy and how it’s shaped and changed my life . . .

I have stated before that I believe I was born coyote, only to discover myself as a coyote when I turned 15, accepting it when I was 16, but when I look back on how my life was shaped from as far back as I can, therianthropy has always and I think will always be a personal thing of my life. Since I was little, I could remember how I was always just, animal. From how I behaved to how I enjoyed specific medias. Even my art.

Now today, therianthropy is still a major part of my life and who and what I am. In 2022, I met a kind friend who we call Valen, Valen was the first person who call me her coyote friend and I remember the pure euphoria that came as a result. At the time, I was still new to being more publicly open as nonhuman since before fandom spaces, I only would stay in alterhuman spaces. Though, I really wanted to engage with fandom spaces due to my own hyperfixations with some shows. The Owl House being one of them. That kind of interaction allowed me to be more open to be myself in fandom spaces.

From there, I allowed myself to be open about my identity without having to hide it, even now I have been able to engage with my special interest and I have been able to teach a few others about it, helping others discover themselves. Through that, I’ve been able to meet some of the best folks who are also in fandom spaces, but also happen to be a lot like me, alterhuman. Lysander is one being I been able to meet, its a catperson and a shapeshifter otherkin who became one of my best friends, also someone who was able to help me feel less alone and more open about myself as a coyote. I love to be openly animal with her. My girlfriend as well, while paw doesn’t identify as alterhuman or the such, they’re so supportive and loving about me being a coyote and sees me as one. It makes me genuinely the happiest coyote to breathe.

While those are just a couple of relationships, I think just in general being openly myself has helped me create and allow some really nice and beautiful relationships. As well as just allows me to feel better about myself of who and what I am, I would never trade it for the world.

My queerness and my therianthropy cannot be separated I believe. Being a coyote is as apart as my life as being a butch lesbian. I often enough just call myself a werebian, butch yotebian, or so on. Hint why I also have a butch theme going on in this site. My gender is as coyote as my species, I cannot separate the two, I am as a genderfluid as my fluid species, yet again, always coyote. Always coyotegender.